Training at NTU was a three-half match, mixed team.
We played like shit, and honestly,
I was fucked up. I played like an asshole, and I conceded a
superlatively stupid goal. I was unable to play a proper centre half when I was supposed to, because my team was not helping the defense. I had to hang back to cover Jingwen the whole half.
I know it's incredibly selfish and bitchy to blame my team for bad play. And I'm
guilty for annoying the shit out of them by shouting at them throughout. I hope they understand that I was being objective by telling them that they aren't playing well. It wasn't as though I'm some big shot player, I am not. In fact,
I'm just a small fry in the hockey world. Some shitty player that doesn't take much to get beaten. I just act like I'm fucking good when I'm the exact opposite.
I want to die. A'Division hockey is so different. I'm trying to be a better person, a better player, a better team mate. It's not easy but I'm working on it. I just wish they understand that I can get easily ticked off during a match when shit happens, like if we suddenly lose possession. I know I am largely a contributor to the mistakes collectively, I know and I'm trying to tie up the loose ends.
I hope my other team mates reciprocate too. I would love to win something this year. Maybe touch gold, if not, at least Finals. I know the seniors yearn for gold, it'd be awesome if the second team could feel the same.
But you know what, with how I perform lately, I doubt I'll make it to first 11. If I don't, I might as well quit. I mean, I'm DSA hockey and the pressure's on me. If I can't even make the first 11, then RJ hockey most certainly have no use for me because it further proves that
I suck.
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I rank my favourite bands this way:
1. Guns N Roses
2. Iced Earth
3. Dragonforce
But recently, I've been hearing a lot of Aerosmith and Bon Jovi. Stupid mainstream rock. Not that there's anything massively wrong about mainstream rock, just, I'm more accustomed to more underground stuff. By underground, I mean underground in Singapore. Because Deep Purple and Rush are underground here, but they are just as mainstream as any mainstream rock band in the USA or thereabouts.
(My vocabulary is so limited that I used the words "Mainstream" and "Underground" 8 times in a single paragraph.)
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It's time to display some Chelsea spirit. They haven't been doing well as of late, what with losing to Fulham and drawing Liverpool. No such thing is tolerable for my Champion Blues. Mourinho, pry your head out of your anus, lower your ego and start another winning streak!
TSKKKK.
