"Don't let your friends tell you you're as good as single"



Do you want me to come at all?

I'm having second thoughts. I don't see the rationale behind travelling halfway around the world for you.
And not for him.

And I certainly do not know why I was looking forward to it. I even crafted an elaborate lie to hide my travel plans.

I'm too rash. I'm too impulsive.
And one day, when I finally wake up from this heartaching nightmare, I'll hate myself so much more.
This, I don't look forward to.

Though it'd be real nice to be enlightened someday, I just hope it's not too late.

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I miss you. [Interlude 11:03 AM]

 
"When I said I love you, darling, that means for good."



I'm sorry.
I never meant to hurt you.

I wish God would give me a sign, to tell me whether my decision is right or wrong, so I can make amendments. I'm really sorry.

I still love you.
This I swear. [Interlude 11:19 AM]

 
"What I remember of that night"

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Thank you. You're amazing.
I wish...

You don't have to go.

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Sport, Art, and Music.
Till we meet again. [Interlude 10:49 AM]

 
"My issues cannot be overcome"

I just can't let go of you and the memories we had together. I will miss you. I almost want to kill him/them so as to prevent you from leaving. But I also want you to be happy...

Motherfucker.


To say the least, O-Week was fun. Felle is such an amazing person, and I'm sorry we didn't try at all. [Interlude 10:03 AM]

 
"A person of your calibre"

I don't understand why you can't just let it go. Raszee is happy with his current job. He just got a promotion, an increment, and he's happy. Just because you can't work here anymore doesn't mean you should stop the good things from coming his way. Stop trying to poach him over to your lousy franchise line.
Thai Express my fluffy arse.
I don't understand why you can't understand that he should stay here in Highlander. Stop it.
He's happy. Let him be.

And you better return my cash by the end of this month or you shall never hear the end of me.
Fuckface.
I thought you were better than this. [Interlude 2:16 PM]

 


"You want a piece of me?"

Recently, I've just been soaking myself in vodka, rum and tequila hoping that I can wash my problems away. Like putting a clean towel in a pile of dirty laundry, I've just been absorbing all the shit that flew my way these past few days. I'm exhausted, both physically and emotionally.

There's this baggage that I can't let go of, no matter how hard I try. I've become so fucking close to my colleagues these 6 months at Highlander that I feel a part of me break away everytime someone leaves for good. Mikael had a most unfortunate termination. Then there was hope that Mikael was coming back. Then Jerome refused to give him a second chance. Now, Toni has followed suit. These two people have made my time at Highlander greater than fantastic, and I never once felt like I was actually working when they were around.
Good things never last long.
These days are over.

I am devastated.

Now, Fadly is starting to feel like an awesome friend annd colleague. But he mentioned his days are numbered. Because of Syaiful.
But whatever the issue is, I think I am going to lose yet another worthy friend.

It's just the nature of the job.
There's a dark side to everything, I guess.



Before you know it, I am the one who has no choice but to leave. And all for a stupid reason - varsity. It's all fucked up. I don't want to leave Highlander behind, I love the place. I love my boss, I love my colleagues, I love my time there. I have to, but I will not give up without a fight.
My name is not Mikael, my name is not Toni, my name is Rachel. I am going to be around. Not as often, but still around.

I miss Jensen too. Which reminds me, I WISH ANIL WOULD FUCKING RETURN MY $250 THAT HE FUCKING BORROWED FROM ME. FUCK.

Alright, this is starting to sound like a pre-menstral rant, which is not the case at all.

I'm going to watch my marijuana grow in my garden now. See you all next lifetime, Rachel is going to kill herself in the first week of school.
And she still has no clue as to when school is starting. [Interlude 8:18 AM]

 
"Liahkim"

What we had is now over. Left with me are some memories I will never forget.

I tried.
I failed.

It's gone and done with.

Michael Learns to Rock - That's Why You Go Away
"I won't forget the way you're kissing..."

This song.

The one wednesday night at Arena:
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